Affection vs. Fatal Reaction

                                                                                                                                                          “Eufemia Ponders” Daffodil (C) 2007

“Affection vs. Fatal Reaction” 

It was 3 a.m I remember
Sitting on the floor cross legs tied hope
Until 6 a.m cramps started to crawl
And I begun to wonder about afternoon
Trash cans in classrooms. Did you call?
.
No. My voicemail yelled, ‘zero’
Mottled heart – fizzled phone.
Umbrageous – a soliloquy clamored
Unknown caller I.D.’s one after another, I
Exhaled- feeling like a cragfast epithelium.
.
10 years went by after a single  sigh
Sailed depthless  seas. Caught by surprise
How patience swanned my bigotry
Would you really? No, you won’t. Yes
Maybe you’ll phone me one day.
.
I never learned how to win this game
In my ears desire echoes, your smile
Whispers, ‘You love it- you love me’.
.
All you know is that you hate me unsex
Days you feel neutered. You’re weirded out why
Belly touching your skin end-less poignant.
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Pensive- these quaint memories kicked off
Like fireworks disney’s winter wonder
Land’s wild dreams will never see.
.
6 a.m my mind winded a sulking male puzzle
I sat with cramps crawling outside -in- to you.
Brainsick- I slept with aphrodisia disgruntled.

~ by savgargin on November 10, 2007.